Still Awkward

I still don´t know what to wear in the mornings. Today I feel perfectly fine but it doesn´t count since I am wearing black and it matches almost anything.

I started my day feeling so guilty (again) for not waking up early to exercise. I gotta get that habit back again.

Yesterday I got home from work, and made a big mess out of a misunderstanding with grandma. I totally yelled at her and felt so bad afterwars for doing so. I guess I was so tired of working and having the pressure all day but I should be able to keep it together and shut my mouth, at least with grandma ´cause she shouldn´t have to pay for my day being so full of work.

I also went thru my closet and took out 3 bags of clothes that are going to charity. I felt so good and basically I made myself two questions before deciding on wheter or not pieces should be removed:

• How long have I had the item?
• When was the last time I wore it?

Three big bags were full of blouses, shoes, belts and even hats. I am telling you it didn´t hurt at all to have those removed. I even took 3 pairs of shoes to be sold at work, I mean, with my friends at work.

With some pieces I had the trouble of letting them go but it was more a matter of remembering the exact situation when I had gotten it. Some blouses my mom brought from her trips with dad, some others were gifts that I had worn so much, others were from BCN. What I always think is that if I lived in BCN with the cold weather and all, having clothes and shoes that filled only one suitcase, I can totally adjust to less than I already have. Some clothes I just know I wont want to wear in the future but having them gives me a false sense of security. Well, I still have another part of my closet and a drawer that need to be examined and purged.

I´m all about pants now, ´cause for some reason I just know I will feel more comfortable in them for a while, even though skirts have always been my favorite.

AB